Dear Diary

 

距離我上次寫日記有多久了？

 

這些天有點迷茫 有點無頭緒 還有點不知所措 

 

剛剛我媽跟我發脾氣，怒沖說“我沒錢給你買XX的東西！”

 

我知道，我又何時央求過呢

 

所以我需要一份工作

 

生在如此的家庭，哪個人不是靠自己工作賺錢

 

我現在假裝著獨立 但又是何其的彷徨

 

我好累

 

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這兩天很喜歡聼 方炯鑌的壞人

 

純粹很喜歡它的歌詞 跟MV搭起來很有意境

 

這兩天寫了很多文章 Senior Project

 

想很多

 

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跟Mei聊了一會

 

她說我最近缺課缺得超過了

 

我說還好啊

 

可是想想，又覺得她說的也不假

 

心 又開始彷徨起來

 

唉

 

我只想好好的享受我不太硬的床

 

不是個過頭的要求啊...

 

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万人皆睡我獨醒

 

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好煩

 

好煩

 

好煩

 

好困

 

好困

 

好困

 

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我用我的膝蓋撞到了我的右眼連眼鏡

 

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then I would have to camouflage... to be friendly and ask happily

 

oh yeah thank god I met these nice friends... really

 

or otherwise I would have to be cluelessly wandering in the helpless dark

 

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Yes. I am more certain that I would like to live on campus next year when I get to college

 

because there is a mother at my home telling me to go to Laney instead of UCs and/or work to pay off the rent that I suppose to pay and food, water, electricity etc.

 

I don't care if all of that stuff come out because of her furious rage when we were having a fight

 

the fact is that she had said it

 

words that've poured out of the mouth can not be retrieved

 

so yes, I am certain. Period.

 

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